.......................

im back home since 6.30 .
lolxx.
thought dez was meeting me.
bt she couldnt make it. )):
awww.
slept ferr 2 hrs.
hahaaa.


dont feel lyk working alr.
so toughh .
i kno.
not suitable ferr me.
not at all!
so boredd now.
still have art class tmr.
tskk!
cat went t genting .
miss herr so muchh ahh.
hehee. ((:





bring me t lifeee.((:

yawnn

aww.
just woke up.
gonna meet up with rena later in town.
um.


went t town ytd.
met cat.
den dezerena n her friendd.
so boredd cann?
den stay under ma block until 2.
lolxx.
so many cockroaches.
hahahaa!
one fly died on dezerena!
lolxx !
so cool rightt?


i had many dreams tday.
lolxx.
i dreamt of amelia, amanda with nini, horror movie with punk rock thingy.
lolxx.
i dunoo why.
hahaa.
gonna prepare now!
*FLY*

aww. didnt rain tdayy. )): abit onlyy.

yay!
last dayy of school! ((:
whole class got promotedd! yay!
congrats , 3N3 ! ((:
it's a brand new yr.
should put behind all the past thingy.((:
heh.


towned with dezerena,kaku,catt.
watch "THE DOLL MASTER"
wahh laoo.
i criedd. lolxx.there's one part was lyk so sadd cann?
mina mina mina! SHE LOOKS LYK MISS TAY!
BUAHAHAHAA!
dont daree t go toilet .
hahaaa.
not scary.
it's just that i think too much. ((:


den headed t far east.
den t P.P
ma stuffs! tskk~.
den back t cine.
ate dinner.
um.
sent millie home.
stupided dez kept scarying us cann?
esp tha lift laa.
lolxx.
den she sent me home.
saw one flying cockroach.
lolxx !
scared me t death cann?
all the wayy from millie's house t ma hs,
asking me t look here n there. up n down. left n rightt !
sicko!
hannah. thanks ferr sending me homee ahh. *mwakks ! ((:



i think of eu each morning,
andd dream of eu each night,
i think of eur arms being around me
and cannot express ma delight.

haiiii.

blog was lyk damn lag ytd.
so didnt get t blog.
yaa.
went t dez' house ytd.
lolx.
BIG ROOM YET SMALL BEDD!!
BUAHAHAHAA..~
i lurve dezerena's bedd.
lotsa hearts. lols!


didnt went t school tdayy.
chan called ma mum.
rubbishh.
lolxx.
met dez at somerset control.
den went outside hereen t find millie n steph! ((:
met cat laterr.


hmmm. den t yoshi.
bought a necklace ferr maself.
((: lurvee it veryy muchh.
lolxxx.
okayy. im very sadd now.
i dont kno whyy. )):
den t hereen.
backk t cine,rocky.
slack.
t that place with dez , millie , steph.
cat went homee.
slackk.


home sweet homee.


ma mind wants t give up,
but ma heart wont let me,
it keeps telling me that this is love from above,
andd i wont be able t find another love againn.

im SO SADD! ))):

went t town with cat n michelle.
yaa. long time since i saw herr.
damn long.
hahaa. got t kno each other since sec 1.
our hangout "pavilion"
lolxx. ewwww !


yaa. went up t met xiao ben n guys.
met dez at k pool.
den t rockyy.
den t the lounge.
yaaa. so romantic.
had a GREAT time there. ((:
kena chased out.lolxx!


den took cab home.
*yawn .
school tmr.



i kno one day u might leave me.
andd as eu left andd said eur good-byes,
eu forgot t tell ma heart how t live without eu.

im so colddd~

woooooo~~
rained in tha morning .
and im still cold now. ((x


yupp ,didnt get t blog ytd.
sister's bf was usingg. awww!


yaa. ytd training was lyk alrightt la.
wore until very formal. lolss!
ferr me is lyk quite boredd. )):
sat ferr 10hrs ! mind YOU! it's 10hrs!
and i paid ferr $30 ferr that t sit ferr 10hrs.
okayy.
worth it.
((:


got back our final yr results.
i THINK i can promote t sec 4.
lolxx.
passed english n 3 other subs.


and ya dez ahh , dont give up hopee ahh ! ((:


watched twins effect after recess in tha hall.
so damn fucking nice cann?
EDISON IS SO CUTEE CANN! ((:
hmmmm .. im waiting ferr that stupidED dezerenaaa t onlinee.
and she's telling me she's not gonna ONLINE! humphh!
*yawnn.


*if eu are a flowerr
i am eur smell.


if eu are the sky
i am eur moonn.


if eu are a tree
i am eur fruitt.


if eu are a mountain
i am eur riverr.


if eu are the sea
i am eur waterr.


if eu are the sunn
i am eur light.


if eu are the seashore
i am eur sand andd shells.


if eu are the rain
i am eur drop.((:
and all bcos I lurve eu.

im err. quite happyy.

im so excited ferr tmr's training!
((:


ehh. met cat,razif and wad his name at cheers.
headed t town. he's so funny cann?
lolxx.
they wentt t orchard 1st .
HOKAYY! "SHE" came.
((:
hahaa! some events . wad LG........
lolx. BREAK DANCING!!! omG! that's really cool!
the korean won! wooohooo!((: yay!
went up t k pool t look ferr ben.
den down againn. stupid cann? saw those wad u called "AH LIAN".
awww! ((x
met dez .
razif went t meet his friend.
went t yoshi . heeren.
BABIES again! so cuteee!
lols.


back t cine.
another break dancing competition.
a japanese guy won! yay!
lols !
met nat. den up t 8 floor.
smoke smoke smoke! huh! huh! huh!
den down again.
okayy.
KAKU'S BACK! miss herr so muchh cann?
*muwahhh ((x
saw howai.
sean and katien too.


went t some place.
lolx.
kinda romantic. (((((((((:
chat ferr a while.
dez sent me homee! ((:
thankss yaa.


when eu walk in ma whole day gets better.
and even when u're not with me,
u're in ma thoughts always.

it dosen matter what we dun have or what we do have.
the most important thing is we have each other
and no one can take that away

eeek. this day suckss !

it's raining!
yayy! *grins

aww.
todayy sucks!
totally sucks !
eewww .
totally boredd can?
yuckss !


town-ed.
met alicia for the job thingy.
she's so cutee laa.
hahaa.
yeaa.
anyway , thankss alicia ferr giving us a chance ! muwahh*
chat ferr a few hrs.
she left ferr her appointmentt.
yaa. and was lyk slacking arndd.
hmmm. saw kelvin, iain and his friend.
yaa. he got number frm millie. ((:
lolxx !
went up t k pool.
dez came.
iain changed his phonee ! OMG! the pics aree lykk. horny?
hhaaa.
cass look so sexyayy !
hahaa . :D


I SAW "HER" !!!!!
omggg! im soo happyyyy! "she" so kkkeeee....ccuteee!!
miss "her" so muchh. haw haww. :p
went t heeren.
saw two lil twins baby! ohh ma tian!!!!
*pinchh-
got stomach cramp.
stupid PMS!
so painful cann?
awww!~~~


den back t cine.
yoshi . cheers .
all the wayyy~~~
took cab homee.
hahaaa. ((:
OKAYY, TODAY SUCKS BIG TIME!


i miss eur lurve,
i miss eur hand,
i dont expect eu t understand
try so hard t start fresh,
start anew,
den everyword written goes back t you.
back t tha start re-living tha end
of how i lost eu.
t me ma angel sent from above,
ma heart still hurting our lives re-arranged.
all i did was runaway from eu,
probably now, tha worst thing t do . .

i regrett.

eu kno that i've been hurting.
mummy says it's growing pains.
here i am hurting, yes im hurting once again.

i've been down t tha river;
i went down there feeling fine.
but before I knew it, i was sitting there crying.

mummy said it just ain't easy.
life is not always what it seems.
she said,"eu're just a poor girl with mixed-up dreams."




**i feel so empty inside,
but no longer do you care t comfort me,
no more do you come,
t wipe away my tears.

eu have gone,
andd i am left here,
broken and alone,
scared and defeated,
ma heart and soul wounded more than
eu will ever know.

only time will tell,
if I will ever be whole.

im at mill's hose nowww !!

awww~ im at millie;s house now. ((:
cat is beside me. so irritatingg.
i hit herr ahh.
too noisyy.
hahaa. ((x
im soooo crazyyy.
stupidd millieee-shuu.
so so so boredd.
do this fucking blog is lyk so damn fucking long cann?
IM FREAKING PISSED!
hahaa.

went t so many factories todayy.
the grass jelly was so greatt! ((:
then t changi museum.
went in the prison cell,
so scaryy !!
hahaaa.

den back t school la.
irritating millie is dancing now cann?
lyk monkeyy.
lolxx! >o<
i miss kakuuuu.
((:

gng town tmr!
anyone wanna come alongg? hahaaa.
welcommeeee .
flying kisses* muwahh! t everyonee.



i wait ferr eu,
anxious t see eur face.

i stand andd watch,
looking ferr tha first sign of eur arrival.
i finally see eu,
i take a second look t make sure eu're really there.

ma pulse races andd i crack a smile,
this is what i've been waiting ferr.
eu begin t approach,
eu say, "sorry, im late."
i say, "nahh it's okayy."

but i think t maself, i'd have waited foreverr.'

im so sadddd.

*ur caring for me seems to be missing.



i wrote eur name in the sky,
but the wind blew it away.
i wrote eur name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
i wrote eur name in ma heart,
and forever it will stay.


eu kno i lurve eu not only ferr what eu are,
but ferrr what i am when i am with eu.
andd i dunno why eu're lyk drifting away from me.

im sickkkk.

i caught a flu .
*sniff*
slight feverr.
awww.
the cough is killing me.
im sick !
hurhurrr.


kaku called me ! ((:
she's late ferr the plane i guess.
hahahaa.
YI LUN SHUN FENG ! *winks.
have fun yaa? ((:

mum told me the staff called ma dad.
i didnt went t school fer 2 dayys.
why am i the only one?
lolxx.
*frown*
so boredd.
have ta go school tmr.
i miss kakuuuu.
gng t stay at home th whole dayy laa.
im so lonelyyyyyyy. )):


the fact that she feels bad is not enough.
for ma emotional wellbeing,
she has t say why.

she;s bad.
she;s sorry.
now what?

im beatt . :))

im so happy! ((:
i duno why.
lolxx.
ponned school todayy wid millie.kaku
((x
was like slacking in tampines for 3 hrs.
called cat.
went t her house.
took bus t town.
lyk so damn early cann?
hahaa.
shop for awhilee.
((:
i saw ma favourite stuffs! yay! :D

waited fer dez at rocky.
saw vernon n he joined us for a short while.
den t B1 den t wisma den t taka.
cat wanna get smth frm lionel so we acc. her back t cine..
stupid thingy happen.
awwww ! shoo shoo ~
kaku's gng thailand tmr . )):
hugged her so tightt ! hahaaa.

millie n i slack at ma hs void deck.
ma dad bought me CHICKEN RICE ((:
ate downstair. so paisehh cann?
lolx. im too hungryy ! hurr hurr~~
was playing lyk madd . #))
bryan n co were sitting at oppsite blk. he miss called me and said hi!
hahaaa. so nice of euuuuu .
den there's one guy came n sell us the ice-cream.
OMG! he's so cutee cann? he's innocent look.
BUT NOT AS CUTE AS MA _ _ _ _ _ _ ! *MUUWAAAKKS :p
MISS HIM BADLY CANN?
lolss. eeeewwww *pinch
hahaa.
home sweet home! *PUFFER FISH* >o<


she can be whatever she want t be.
it's all up t EUU !

*im always alone waiting for eu .
but there's no sight of eu. )):
ilu*

yawnnn.

im home !
so suprisee !
woshh!
finally get t blog.
*winks .
nothing much todayy.
oh ya!
got back our papers.

went t millie's house after school.
yeaa.
hawhaww.
sherman's stead look quite chio.
((:
hahaa.

okayy.
watched "new police story" and "white chicks".
ya.
i've watched twice but ermm.
im the one who laughed the loudest among them.
>.<
dont feel lyk gng t school tmr.
blehh.

"night"-mareee.

watched white chics andd san gen ||.
so bloody.
and it's suck !
not scary AT ALL !

i went t take a nap afterr the show.
okayy.
i had "afternoon-mare."
lolxx.
ma teeths kept dropping and dropping!
andd lotsa blood cann?
phewww!
it was JUST a dreamm.
hahaha.

i stayed at home tha whole dayy!
andd towning tmr . ((:
yawnnn.

kjdsfhjksd

didnt went school todayy.
yawnn .
went t millie's house ((:
watched garfield.
all us laughed lyk hell cann?
hahaa. .
her hall, room were messed up by us.
lolxx .
sry millie! >.<

got back our maths and chinese paperr.
yay!
i passed ma overall for ma chinese.
hahaa. .
im afraidd.
really afraid i might retain.
thinking again n again.

millie's here ! ((:

its millie's bdayy!

phew phew phew !
todayy was the last paper!
yay!
everyone shouted ! screamed!
lolxx.
was the first tym i had completed ma art piece.
it's still ugly thou.
awww! ))):

went t town !
celebrated millie's bdayy.
was like so happy! ((:
i've forgotten t bring her present.
(((x
i'm sorry!
ate rocky ferr lunchh.
met kathleen n amanda .
den jenn's cousin.
pool forr 2 hrs i guess.

dez came.
went hereen t take pics!
(((:
met sean. den kahtien.
we bought a choco cake fer millie !
celebrated at rocky.
dez n co went up.
so left the 4 of us. howai was with us too!
hmmm............den up t k pool againn.
dez sent us homeee ! yawnn ! so tired tiredd !

nt gng t school tmr i guess.

>.<

hmmm.
i've bought millie's birthdayy presentt.
heh heh.
not gonna writee here.
hehee.
well, maths was real tough todayy!
i dont understand wad the hell the paper is talking aboutt.
ya.
DIE!

phew!
tmr is the last paperr.
the most horrible subject , art.
lolxx.
im making smth ferr millie!
yay!
hahaaa.
yawnn.
im so tiredd !

>.<


im not maselff.
im just putting a fake smilee.

goth dolls rockk !

>.<
waiting ferr ma darling t onlinee.
yawnn.
yay!
we're darlings now!
lolxx.


maths paper tmr.
die die die !
no calculatorr!
tskk.
stupid emily dont wanna findd!
aww shitt!
no one answerrr me in msn!
I NEED A CALCULATORR!!
aarrgghhh!

:((

people ask me waht happen t me.
i told them i cried last night.
i told them i've no idea.
i told them i've tried, tired very hard not t think of eu.
i really duno why.
eu appear in ma mind every min, every second.

i'll remember tha feeling u gave me ,
tha day we hadd.

ma whole heart is breaking when u ran away.
u promise t stay by ma side but after some time u just push me aside.



but now i kno why i cried.
cus,
i've stab her too deep in her heartt.
i'm sorry.

i l o v e b l o o d

i dunno.
i really dont understandd.
many things happen t me.
and i regret fer wadd i did n said.
i kno ,
those words cant be taken back.
i regret.
and i really do.

okayy.
well , had ma chem n physic paper todayy.
againn.
not so tough n not so simple.
hahhaa .
yeaa .
andd went t tm after school while millie went t meet her godma.
i miss euu !
i've lotsa things t tell euu . :(((


i'll bear the consequences,
i dont care wadd tha hell she did n said.
no matter wadd ,
i will NEVER N NEVER EVER forget those time we spent togetherr.
it's alright with me if she forgets.

woaasshhh ! yawnn.
im so tiredd.
toodles !
yay! 4 more days t go ! :)))

lalaalala heyy!

had social studies todayy.
okayy.
i wrote rubbishh.
when i saw the qns , my mind went black straight awayy.
wwooosssshh!

physic . chem tmr.
studying half wayy.
yawnn.
headache againn. .
awwww .
im sleepyy.
5 more dayys.
YAY!
im hungry now.
tata! ((((:

hoi hoi hoi .

YAY!
got back ma chinese paperr. (((:
i passed!
maths was alrightt .
not so tough n not that simple.
yeaa. wadevaaa.
social studies tmr.
awwww. sucks !
waiting ferr jenn t come hommeee.
i miss euuu ! >.<

yawnn.
headache againn.
shitt!
hmmm hmm hmmm hmmm . looking forwardd ferr millie's celebration!
YAY!
" NEW POLICE STORY " is really damn nice cann?
oh ma tian ! muwahh!
6 more days t go.
*VRRRRROOOMMMMMMMM..VRRRRROOOOMMMMMMM*

imissyouu!

ummmm. .
had chinese paper 1 n 2 today.
okayy.
was alright i guess.
yeaa.
went t queenstown ta fetch em'
den t sean's hs.
while jen n millie went homee.
millie didnt bring herr keyss!
mwuahh!

was sleeping ferr awhile at sean's
ahahaha ..
dez bullied me !
gggrrr !
lolxx.
okayy.
im nicee . x)))))
nvm !

went home arnd 5+.
yeaa. .
yawnn.
was talking to jenn noww.
muwahh!
okayy.
fly kiss to everyonee. MUUUUUUUUUWWWWAAAHHHH!

ilu!

yawn*

YAY!
rained in tha afternoon!
((((((((:

errrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
studied tha whole day.
still studying cann ?
nth to blog bout todayy .


arrgghh!
stewpad pop-outs.
PUi____

hee hiao hee

i've been doing ma art since morning.
wokee up at 11 .
andd now i just bathed.
(((((((((((:
im learning chinese now.
awww. .
getting weakerr fer ma chinese.
i dont know why.
tskk !
aarrgghh!


very stress now.



:(((((
save meee .


Dear god,
I kno that she's out there. .
the one i'm suppose t share ma whole life with.
And in time. .
eu'll show her to me.
Will eu take care of her,
comfort her,
and protect her . .
until that day we meet.
And let her kno. .
ma heart. .
is beating with hers.

hee hee hiao

had our english paperr today.
paper one was alrightt bt when it comes to paper 2 ,faint cann?
so difficult thatt i dont know what to write ferr the ans.
i've done my very bestt.
that's all i can do.
hopee can pass la. :))

towned today.
met cat n WAITED ferr dez ferr ehh . 2 hrs?
heh!
saw majia.
slacked arnd.
and home sweet homee.
:))